It might seem an odd question, but it is one I have been giving a lot of thought lately, there have been several events in recent months that have led me to this point.
Me, well what you see is what you get. I have two characters in Secondlife - Zenobia is one. But they are both "me" - different sides of me, facets of my personality if you will, but both rooted in me, the real me, the woman the other side of the screen. I have tried to claim they are completely seperate entities, but in truth, can any writers creation be completely seperate from their creator? I don't think they can - they will always share some of the same views, or values, or maybe just a personality trait or nervous habit, but there will always be SOMETHING of their creator in them.
Zennie is a flirt, she is playful, fun, and a touch wild, she is the girl I longed to be, the party animal that everyone loves, that people want to be near for all her unprodictiablity. She shares her flirtatious side with me, but she has bucket loads more confidence then I ever would - she thinks nothing of dancing on tables, of approaching cute guys, or wearing daring or outragous outfits.
Her Alter-ego (who ironically was my first SL account) is much calmer, still a bit of a flirt, still a little playful, but far more reserved. She is the "grown-up" one, she has a husband, her business, and prefers to chill out with friends then bounce around the grid.
The one thing both my "girls" share is the vulnerability, and that they get from me without a doubt, because although Zen is the life of the party, she doesn't have many "true" friends and gets hurt easily when her world is rocked.
Twice within 6 weeks she has learnt that not everyone is all they seem in a virtual worlds. Where as she wears her heart on her sleeve, others although they seem to be the same, have hidden corners where secrets hide.
I guess it is hard for me to accept this, call it niavity if you wish, but I tar all with my brush, I see the best in everyone - before now, I have never seen that as a flaw in my personality - but now, maybe, I see that it is.
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Like you Zen, I have two alter-egos in SL and again, like you they are "different personalties - Fortyniner is quiet, wants to get on with everyone but is basically shy and treats everyone as he would like to the treated.
The other (and I might tell you who is is at some point) is much more confident and outward going, not afraid to upset people if there is a reason.
I guess the 2nd "me" is who I would like to be while Forty is who I am.
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